...when we turn our eyes inward, we can see that the bright or confused actions of body, speech and mind all leave traces in our hearts.
|Some of this vipaka will be manifest externally. But of profound importance are the internal residues from how we have lived. At Cittaviveka the Dhamma Hall is no longer a skeleton of a building, only usable when the season is warm and gentle; it now has a stone floor, plastered walls, and doors to keep the cold out - a welcome space for meditation. And of particular loveliness is the white Buddha-rupa who smiles down on all who enter - a year when such a beautiful Buddha is born is indeed a fortunate one. So, amongst all that has arisen, some of it difficult and heart-rending, there is this obvious sweet fruit of the past year. Then there is the heart-fruit of the goodness that nourished it, the gladness and faith that have been strengthened in all those who supported it. We can feel what it is like to be able to stop and recollect, 'I'm part of that. I supported its coming into being.' As with this, so it is with so many things we offer our life energy to. |
To review the consequences of action is certainly something the Buddha encouraged. He said it is a way we can train ourselves, purifying our bodily action, our verbal action and our mental action. Then, when we channel our heart's wholesomeness into supporting what is for the well being of others, the consequences are naturally fortunate. We can feel that we are part of a field of merit. These results then give us courage to continue with this path of purification.
When we sit quietly with ourselves, when we turn our eyes inward, we can see that the bright or confused actions of body, speech and mind all leave traces in our hearts. It is important that we bring these into the field of mindfulness and full comprehension; we can then allay what is unfortunate, and find strength and encouragement from what is bright and noble. We clear out the residue that, if left to re-seed, would only be to our harm. We can feel into the resentment we may carry, touch the darkness of it and through compassion for ourselves let it be cleared out. From this place of care for ourselves, we can allow forgiveness, and with this a sense of wisdom arises - 'given the conditions how could it have been any other way?' This clear attention brings a sense of renewal: when we attend to our hearts fully there is the possibility of new growth and a verdant flowering.
As we rest into our goodness, letting it be medicine to soothe and allay the pain of what has been hurtful for us, we can start to sense a deeper reality that holds all of it. Through mindfulness and a full comprehension of the whole of our experience the traces the heart carries are perceived, and the very knowing of the mind becomes revealed to us. We come into awareness itself: we feel this profound ground of being, and taste its ambrosial fruit.